The way I used to be

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In the tradition of Speak, this extraordinary debut novel shares the unforgettable story of a young woman as she struggles to find strength in the aftermath of an assault.

Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn't change who she was. But the night her brother's best friend rapes her, Eden's world capsizes.

What was once simple, is now complex. What Eden once loved--who she once loved--she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true, is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she's supposed to tell someone what happened but she can't. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.

Told in four parts--freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior year--this provocative debut reveals the deep cuts of trauma. But it also demonstrates one young woman's strength as she navigates the disappointment and unbearable pains of adolescence, of first love and first heartbreak, of friendships broken and rebuilt, and while learning to embrace a power of survival she never knew she had hidden within her heart.

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9781481449366
9781467624862
9781481449373
9781442396005
9781481449359
Reading Level:
UG
Level 4.4, 13 Points
Lexile measure:
HL: High-Low 640L
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Grouped Work ID 2864f89e-2ab7-fd35-4719-ef8505908211
Grouping Title way i used to be
Grouping Author smith amber
Grouping Category book
Last Grouping Update 2018-07-17 23:03:23PM
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auth_author2 Ross, Rebekkah, 1975-
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subject_facet Audiobooks, Emotional problems -- Fiction, Rape -- Fiction
title_display The way I used to be
title_full The Way I Used to Be, The way I used to be / Amber Smith, The way I used to be [sound recording] / Amber Smith
title_short The way I used to be
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